BLOG.
THIS IS REVIVAL.
When I wrote those words my heart dropped. Of course the condemning thoughts came. “How can God be your last resort? How awful. You’re supposed to be a christian. You’re supposed to be a leader”. I felt so guilty. But, God immediately met me with the most gentle and sweet spirit. I felt his love and peace overwhelm me.
What I recognized is that alot of times in sharing my testimony with others it has been for them, and not for me. I haven’t fully received the freedom that comes from the word of my testimony because my testimony has been a route for approval and not healing. This is a form of silencing, honestly.
Often my prayer has been Lord give me your heart for your people. Teach me how to love like you. Show me how to love. But never has my heart been postured towards asking God to teach me how to love me the way that he loves me. Ever.
You are needed in the spaces that he’s placed you in. Your presence is on purpose and serves a purpose. You being where you are is intentional.
Unchecked insecurity leads to comparison and judgement, comparison and judgement lead to division. We all have a specific role to play in what is being unfolded.
God is unmuting silenced voices in order for His will and purpose to be fulfilled on this earth as it is in heaven.
SPIRITUAL GROWTH.
But soul work is not work that we do on our own, it’s not a series of steps or actions that we can do in order to heal or grow out of something. Soul work is God’s work that he allows us to see and be part of. It’s us yielding to the work that God so graciously does in us to bring transformation.
Lord, Help me to sit with you. when there are no words to say, when my mind is flooded with everything else but you, and when there are things happening in my heart that I have no awareness of, help me.
But there’s intentionality in this moment not happening the way I desire. It feels like I’m being tortured honestly, but what is really happening is God is giving me space to sit in what I’m feeling rather than finding a way out of it.
When I wrote those words my heart dropped. Of course the condemning thoughts came. “How can God be your last resort? How awful. You’re supposed to be a christian. You’re supposed to be a leader”. I felt so guilty. But, God immediately met me with the most gentle and sweet spirit. I felt his love and peace overwhelm me.
music.
The theme of this playlist is intimacy and hopefully directs your heart towards allowing God into difficult situations and parts of your heart you’d rather keep hidden. Take a listen.
This song is a beautiful visual of a father calling out to his children; his children lovingly and desperately responding to him.
POETRY.
She is love and she embodies the deepest form of love, an indescribable love that penetrates your deepest and darkest fears & insecurities.
Often our hearts direct us in the wrong direction so we think, but everything happens for a reason and thats what puts our mind at ease.
Mama, you are the muse, the inspiration, the love, the self-correction, the encouragement, the joy, the strength, and the happiness that flows through me each and everyday.
But there’s intentionality in this moment not happening the way I desire. It feels like I’m being tortured honestly, but what is really happening is God is giving me space to sit in what I’m feeling rather than finding a way out of it.